As 2012 gently guides us into the future, change is shaping itself into the present. My world is a very exciting one right now, and it's filled with a calm awareness. Which isn't something I'm overly familiar with. I believe it is brought on by the grace of letting go of that which does not benefit me and grabbing onto belief.
I'm letting go of people, of habits and expectations. I'm turning to belief in myself, my family, and greatness for others. The Universe is talking, and I'm hearing and listening to what it has to say. I don't think we're always taught kindness. To love without malice, without judgement or jealousy. But just because we aren't taught something, it doesn't mean that we can't learn.
I've witnessed attitudes that baffle me, anger and resentment that take away from joy, and fake interactions that neither fulfill nor provide solace. 2011 opened a number of doors and showed me a grand scale of photos into some of the best and worst moments of humanity.
Here's what I have resolved. What I can do, and what I will not. In 2012:
I will move forward with forgiveness.
I will not hold myself to an unrealistic standard.
I will make mistakes.
I will try to laugh more than I cry, unless crying makes me feel better.
I will do my best to be kind, provide empathy, and let love walk into every room I enter.
I will try not to judge you, and when I start to, I will remind myself that I am not God.
I will believe in all things.
I will ask for forgiveness and the ability to believe more.
I will love on the grandest scale I can imagine and supersede it.
I hope this year that you give yourself over to what your heart seeks. That you believe in yourself, even if you feel foolish or doubtful. That you let yourself make mistakes, and don't judge the mistake as a failing. I hope you will close your eyes and imagine who it is you want to be. That you see that person, that you name the qualities they posses and the dreams they desire. And I hope that once you see who that person is, that you recognize that
because you wish it, because you name those qualities and see them, you
already have everything inside you to become who you wish to be.